Leap of Faith

The decision to adopt is very personal and not necessarily an obvious one. It can be something that two people (or perhaps one) talk about and describe as "something that would be cool to do." Now I personally think there are a lot of cool things to do  in life , and adoption is certainly something that sat in the back of my head as a thing that seemed likely to be a part of my life. What that meant in my head is different now as it is a reality. Perhaps I have seen Annie too many times (and Wally will sadly atest to this!)

 I find it amusing how human beings fantasize about things that may make us feel better about being human beings, but we rarely investigate the real steps that it could take to do the "cool things" or manifest what seems like impossible ideas. Now I don't think I  could have ever predicted the plethora of experiences that I had with AXIS ! As a matter of fact, I spent 8 years living surprise after surprise with many of them involving hoards of laughter or tears. Having a career as a dance artist has demanded a tremendous amount of trust, risk, hope, commitment and passion. I don't believe  these words to be at all separate from one's that describe the adoption process.

Wally & I have spent 13.9 years together (10.3 married) and have used as much time as possible getting to know each other. We hope to always be learning about each other, never make  to many assumptions, continue to make new discoveries and discern complexities & their potential solutions. 

Our reasons for adopting are simply because we want to be parents AND we think that we might be good ones. Not perfect or blue printable, but able to provide lots and lots of love, the thing that ALL living things strive for. The thought process to adopt It is not rocket science and we haven't spent years and years thinking about all of the pros and cons of why we should or shouldn't make this choice. I spent years and years knowing that I wanted to have a dance career and I do. I wasn't always confident that I would, but I somehow got there.It has been  a continuous process of growing, discovering and creating. Again, makes me think about the relationship between any child and its parents.